Monday, March 15, 2010
♥ face it, & i will be stronger. so do you.
im gonna revive this dead blog since its the holidays now.
hmm, the past month was like a roller coaster. there's the thrill and excitement, as well as all the frustrating and depressing things that engulfed me. bleh. mostly related to dance. ahahah. ohwells. i still love it.
yupz.
on my birthday 24022010, i had mad 2nd round audition. and yeah, so my 17th birthday wish was to get in MAD HIPHOP. for the past 17 years, dancing is the only passion i have and long lasting enough (the passion for drawing kind of went off halfway, and i wasnt brave enough to go pursue more for singing. ahahah. always say i want to try for campus superstar, but never really went for it. lol.) and MAD's the only way i can get to learn it well without having to pay so much for it. cos ahah, poor people dun get to spend alot on passion. practical purposes come first-.- bleh!(: so god gave me the chance and i got in:D phew. i was happy, but not that happy- cos of various reasons. my good frens din get in and i felt as if im "unwanted" by them (but i know that's not true alr, cos i know you guys still love me!:D), then from some comments read from seniors' blog i became quite afraid of mad, and im scared i will change. personality and charcter wise.
but after i officially got into mad, all i can say is, EVERYTHING ABOUT MAD IS DA LOVE ♥
it a cca that i will never ever pon!
just like guides! :D
(though i have never pon any cca before! haha)
then SBDC.. mmm. knew about the competition a week before. had a lot of decision making stuff and things related to it. 6 people in a group, but it eventually became a two-choose-one situation. felt abit unfair cos its not really a thing about dancing ability, imo. blah. so on thurs, after training till late night for it from sun to thurs, wells, the one was decided. was dam affected by it. cried like shit for it. cried at the studio, cried the way home, cried in my bed. like some lousy shit loser-.- thought alot alot alot about it and somehow those thinking managed to calm down and overcome the inner me.
"dont wallow in self-pity cos no one will pity you. crying only seeks people's attention. so dont cry and pick yourself up. be strong!"back to the good happy (+) huijun
yuppz. went down to support the sbdc participating team on saturday. saw a few seniors there:) went down on sunday to support the bboy team from hc and the pro j1 bboy, together with the rest of MAD:)
heehee. i think life is awesome when i get to spend it like that ♥
to twin:
"dont wallow in self-pity cos no one will pity you. crying only seeks people's attention. so dont cry and pick yourself up. be strong!" -something that b told me on wed when i broke down. its already a reminder in my head, and it will be how im gonna make myself less weak.
& im sure you can. ♥
to lj: chilli goddess. get ur hotness back. SOL->LOL. dance will be better when its past the competiton period. it's quite fun to get to know and learn different kind of style!(:
to wj: you suck!:D
the reason for our passion in dancing and theirs is different. i guess.