Thursday, October 29, 2009
♥ IM THE SMARTEST KID IN THIS WORLD. NO DOUBTS MAN-.-
omfg.
know wad?
i happily deleted the picture folder where it contains my SHINee collection thinking that i had a backup. i cleared my recycle bin without checking (there was no effing backup!) and prooff, the whole folder of over 100 pics GONEEE. tell me how smart i am-.-
(btw, this post is kinnda long- for the sake of my inner peace)hell ass smart right. i think so too.
prove #1. as above.
prove #2.
i got 59 for chinese eoy. how to tell myself i am dumb. i never knew i was capable of getting 59 for CHINESE. wtf.
and chinese remedial awaits me tmr. hell yeah!
prove #3.
the irony. (from the prev post) i said i had no hopes for LA. but hey, guess wad. after moderation of +3 across level, i got 70! my
first A for english in hmm, let's see...on the 4th year! *and see, wad happened to my chinese!*
prove #4.
ih eoy. like hello? i left 7 marks of sbq blank without a single word, and i got 7/25 for a sbq that's done in 30 mins. should i say i made the right choice to focus on writing a 4 page essay? 19/20 is a good mark right! considering that there were no red markings at all on the essay except for ticks and a "WELLDONE!":D, and they saved the 3rd mark for those who wrote 3 factors dam well. but see, if i used 45 mins for sbq or maybe even more, wrote the health factor instead of wrting the govt factor that i feel so proud of when i was preparing for ih test, i could have gotten like 16? then maybe 16 for sbq? that's like 32/45!!! A2 leh!
but im not regretting for giving up on sbq! in fact im happy my govt point was well-written cos i spent so much time trying to link them to poverty and to exclude the points about business corruption cos they are just not similar to poor govt! and my efforts proved me right! hee!;D
im just analysing from a different perspective;D
and the proving list can just go on from the mistakes that i shouldnt have made but they din really hurt me in anyway, so spare them!
i know the words above are awfully sarcastic. was my intention unless my writing skills is really that bad till you couldnt tell that they were supposed to.
(no sarcasm now..)
i think my overall for sec4 will be like B3s for LA, CHI, IH and A1 for the rest.
my ma calculated for me, and she seems q happy with it.
and actually i am too. provided chinese be an A2 instead of B3.
but from a C5 become B. what more can i expect.
inner peace!chinese remedial tmr. i shall be good and go for it. a punishment for screwing my chinese i guess. even though my ma din really say much about it after her first reaction when she knew the mark, but im awfully guilty, very very 自责. it's my fault i guess.
i should have made the effort to memorise those info that the trs gave for zuo wen and ying yong wen. 填鸭式教学(?) and for the compre, i should think less for the cloze passage, and jus choose based on my first instinct. the more i think, the more confused i am with the options and then it just gets harder to choose and it's NO GOOD YO! screwing that part just screws the rest of the paper. oh freak.
but srsly, i dun think i will gain much from the remedial. i dont think doing compres and writing more zuowens help me though many think that it does help..but sian, i rather go home and immerse myself in chinese novels (that i really love reading and i bother to actually check dictionary for words that i dunno and take down quotes that i like), and get dam alot of inspirations to write narratives or build up my language sense or vocab bank.
this is srsly the best way to learn chinese lor. wad's with compres and zuowens. other than book writers, who else will really write chinese in future about all the issues. we will discuss and evaluate la, but writing them out and (for the sake of good marks and can only write the supposedly morally and politically correct answers-.-), not many will have the chance to? 0.0
and i am not being anti-chinese lang, i love chinese and i think the language is really beautiful, but i just dont like the way it is being taught. but aiya, not that i can think of any better ways. so just treat as random rants la hor..
i read my sec2 narratives just now, and they were so much better than the kind of sucky loser baozhangbaodao that i am writing now. sigh.
had DNA workshop today. cloning again. the lesson is interesting, but omgawd, i cant believe how fated i am to cloning okay.
NY sabt= cloning.
Bio o= cloning.
and guess wad, GCP- chemical life science=cloning again.
GAWWWWD.
anw, the lesson was conducted by external vendor and the person came from a poly. he wanted to be a doctor but didnt want to be stuck to his job 24/7, so he chose some science-related thing (cant rmb what it is) to study in poly, he didnt take bio in secondary, but he's teaching us bio now! and he got his honours in some science field that i cant rmb. but yeah, and i was so tempted to ask him if poly or jc was better, but i didnt.
cos i thought there wouldnt be much meaning in asking...even if i wanted to go to poly, my ma wouldnt allow. but srsly, i think if i can do well in poly and excel in that field that i chose, i will be much much much more outstanding than any other jc students with all the necessary knowledge and concrete experiences. so why go jc and let myself drown in the crowd of people who are just so good in everything and stress myself trying to compete with them right? focusing and being able to excel in just that field that i really like isnt it better?
but i guess jc just opens you up to more choices..like excelling in everything, so that you can get to choose what you really want to be in future.
for overseas university..i dont think excelling in everything really matters.
from dramas, it seems that money make wonders. even if you suck dam horribly, somehow you will still get into the school? i dunno. some of the foreign students there are just good in the area that they really are interested in, they are not necessarily good in everything right? singapore students just aim to excel in everything so that they can get the measly few scholarships that are provided for them to go overseas. even the rich who have millions and billions are fighting for the scholarship. but just what are these scholarships trying to prove lah! if singapore wants to nurture their own talents, and only people with msg 1.0 for everything and perhaps, a lil exceptions here and there can get them...then what about the rest who are really talented in one field but just not able to do the rest huh. this scholarship idea is really dam contradictory.
i dont really understand why people have to make themselves undergo so much torture for the sake of these. argh, wad's wrong with people's mind. i kept wondering why im studying so much for just an eoy..
for a future i guess-.-
to have that future to earn that freaking money.
lejing's quote: "money is not everything, but without money, you're nothing." the unknown future.
i have been saying i want to be a gynae, but its just a dream that's q impossible. so friends, dont worry too much about sending ur pregnant uterus to me, cos you wont get a chance, even though i know you really want to. HAHA.an atomic bomb might just drop on this lil red dot next year.
who knowsss.