Wednesday, September 2, 2009
♥ 一同感受文字的魅力吧!
♥书名：你在谁身边，都是我心底的缺 ——橘子
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哭泣湖。美得令人想要哭泣的湖泊，没有去过的人不会知道。
和他的哭泣湖，我从来没有告诉过任何人，于是我明白，
越是珍贵的回忆，往往越是吝于泄漏... 所以我只是把这一天，这个人，还有和他的哭泣湖，放在心底，偶尔怀念，然后感慨，然后遗憾，即使是经过了很久很久的以后，还是。
还是。
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知道为什么玫瑰只能带着刺吗？
那不是他的生长的方式，因为那只是它其实脆弱。
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“问你一个问题，人在什么情况之下，会向问对方你爱不爱我？”
“当你爱着对方，也想被对方好好爱着的时候。”
几乎是想也没想的，他回答。
“当想要不顾一切去爱的时候，甚至想要舍弃一切和对方逃跑的时候。”
我说，“所以，你爱我吗？”
他望着我，他沉默，而握着我的拿手，力道紧得让我痛；我以为他会说我爱你，我知道他爱我，就像我爱着他那样的程度的爱，爱得心都痛了，痛得都想哭了，可是不行了？是吗？今天不是生日了，
所以我们不可以勇敢了，是吗？趁着眼泪滑落之前，我强打起笑容，我说：“旅程愉快。”
然后松开它的手，我转身离开，我不想他看见我的狼狈。
虽然你对我的认真我也感动万分
你终究也不是属于我的人
但记得在你孤单的时候
我会伸出双手 我会是你朋友
到永久
(作词作曲：李偲菘)
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此时二十八岁的我望着照片上二十八岁的他，我是这想要对他说些什么，可是他静止了。
我不知道该对他说些什么，因为思念太多了，多得不知道该从何说起。
打开对折的纯白色信纸，他的亲笔字迹一下子眺入我眼底：
曾经，我有个遗憾
在该说我爱你的那个当下
我选择了沉默
而今，就算我又在多的成就，拥有再大的世界
都没有办法让我买回那个错过的当下
我不后悔，我只遗憾
虽然，你在谁身边，都是，我心底的缺。
在心底我默念，我试着想象他写下这些字时的心情，表情，是不是和我一样？被眼泪模糊的看不见。
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the story has more content that the above, it was way more complicated than this unblessed love. but i teared when i read this part. somehow. hah. and as usual, i wrote alot of things in my little multi-purpose notebook! the 少女的书 suat claims it to be! heh;)
i love how feelings and scenery and uh, everything is expressed in chinese than english. the feel is just..ehhh, more intense when in chinese and i love that feel! or maybe i should say, the phrases and sentences are just...emotionally arousing. even paragraphs in simple sentences! so i dont know why people dun like chinese and cant comprehend chinese. it's such a beautiful language. haha. but i guess it's the same why i dun like english though i can comprehend english, but aiya, you know the feeling when you keep wanting to be better n something, but in the end all the scripts that were returned to you were just mere passes. like not even occassional good grades. ahh. totally demoralised. hah! but im know well enough that i should get my feelings for english well and all good again, and start reading english books and the paused-interest in newspaper, just in case i fail eoy. shit. boohoo.
P.S//
read the jnrs blog, one heartening and one disheartening. oooh.
glad to see sec3s bonded and loving each other. i got goosebumps reading their post. batch'06 past and now renamed to batch'09 can leave in peace! haha.
but wells, for the other, all i can say is giving can be inborn and can be nurtured as well. new as all of us are to a new environment, some people who do not have it inborn, need time for it to be nurtured within them. those who already have it in them, why not give, and take, and help those around to nurture that in them. at least this is what i believe in
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