Saturday, June 20, 2009
♥ I TRY SO HARD YET ALL'S COMING TO NAUGHT. BUT DANCE= ;D
fcuk lah srsly wth is ur prob.
i asked if i could bring laptop along. i just need "yes" or "no". yahyah. and then u dig out a whole lot of random things and start yelling at me. srsly, wad's ur prob? u can criticise me for buying things at a price tt u think is too ex while i think it's okay, so why cant i criticise you for buying things too expensive when you think it's okay. u told me to relax cos it's just ur opinion, so why cant i say the same things too? he can dun buy food back for me when u told him to, and u didnt scold him for not buying, and then u come scold me when i merely said i dun want to buy but still i bought it in the end.
srsly, u volunteered to do all this saikang of doing all the planning of the trip and stuff, now u complaining cos probs cropped up last minute. you take up the responsibility of planning, it is right that you solve it right? u vent it out at me, wth luh.
if u think bringing the family, or rather me so useless, so tiring, then dont. not like i care now. i tried so hard to make this whole thing come together closer and the bond stronger, i talk crap to cover the silence and try to make myself be happy when i am not even happy. it's so dam freaking tiring. you dont see my efforts, just take away this holiday thingy lah! the whole family will just SAN one day, and then u dont come and cry. now that there's overseas prog in sch, i get to go overseas alrdy, it doesnt really make a diff if i dont get to go for another one. and all the more i will be happier because i dun have to feel guilty when deep down in my heart, i want to go for those overseas trip to those freaking expensive european countries, but because of money and then i decided to maybe just settle for some local attachment thingy. if you really think going overseas is jsut for the sake of going overseas, then be it lah. wth.
u know the feeling of putting in the effort and when people dont appreciate it. u dun feel happy because ure not rewarded, because even that lil smile is a form of reward, but yet u dun get it. wad's wrong with being piss when i put in the effort to go buy food though deep down in my heart i really din wanted to (we were like dam far away from the eating place alrdy, but i went back okay), but yet he doesnt even bother to go shun bian buy lunch back for me when he's eating out. u dun see urself siding with him and then u say i always say u side with him, but srsly, ure the only one who refuse to accept the fact okay.
and i srsly dont think wad's wrong with voicing out wad i really think when i feel wronged. lyk wtth? wad's this era lah. being more elder now doesnt mean u got the power to control others, and others dont have the right to talk back okay. it's just means u deserve more respect, but when things u say dun deserve any respect because wad ure doing is just putting urself one whole level higher up than me, and not putting urself in my shoe, then srsly, who cares about u being an elder.
and again. cant u understand this word call passion. or at the very least smth that u enjoy doing? doing homework is not smth that can replace dancing just beacause i dun have the time doing hwk okay. i know this sounds totally irresponsible or wad crap, but when u found smth u really feel happy doing it, u will. bt i think the day will never come.
i dont like to say things that are unnecessary when wad i say will just make the whole thing worse, but srsly, because we are a family (or for another instance, because it concerns a whole grp of people) that's why i dare to say things out and be frank even if it's just some random things. if the day that i dont even bother saying things out comes, i dunno, the huijun now will just die and become some rebellious ahlian and die in some random place eating some random drug. simply because there is nth in this world that really matters anymore.
i have no wish to become some rebellious girl lyk wtf okay. dont try.
anwww, danced today was awesommmee!MWAHHHHAH!
finished the tearitup choreo;DDD crash-ed lyk crap. but it was fun! got to know some really nice people from MDIS uni: cindy and tatty! and they are really good. and apparently, there's gonna be more tmr. more pros..AWW!=X
haha. dancing
full out was fun!!! instead of walking thru the steps, which we dont really consider it walking, but brenda calls it walking cos got not enough power. bleh! but yeah, everyone's dam daring, i wld call it now. even crystal and adele loosen up lyk alot, heh;D
cos mummy went m'sia for one day tour, i went auntie's hse for dinner which was really nutritious (what i wld call it now)! hahah, comparing to maggie, lyk uh-huh, duh! and i like teh feeling of watching tv with sisters, discussing storyline and etc. ahah, but yeah, sadly i have no sisters and my bro is only interested in dota or wadeva shyt. bleh! ate choco and toffee eclaire for dessert!!<3 then daddy fetched mummy and came to pick me, and the whole wtf-wth-shyt-crap-ass-lousy thingy happened. grah:(
thurs- had dance.
fri- missed the lesson.
sat- had dance.
sun- gng to have dance.
monday- dance summer "camp"! maybe?
tues-fri- genting :) & :(
fri night-sat-sun: salsa congress! perf??? ;D
YAY! heheheh❤
HOMEWORK LEFT:
1. R&R x5
2. chi book review x1
3. IH corrections and evaluation
4. IH topical presentation research
5. NYAA
congrats me yah, i totally have no time to do.
but i dun tink they are due immediately when sch reopens;D
i need to relax, no?
*guilty=P*