Thursday, May 21, 2009
♥ IT'S ALL MY FAULT.
u volunteered to do that part, i din force you to do it. and im grateful that u volunteered because i know i wont be able to do that part, because my IT skills sucks. i know it's dificult. that's why when you said u want to have it early, i chionged it out for you until dam late okay. you still said i was silly when i rushed it out until dam late, because i know that you dun have the program to do it at home and have to do it in school, i know that you have your other work, i know i cant expect you to stay back in sch to do because you have ur commitments to people and things. and at that point of time, we had alot of things due as well, like chinese SIA, but still, i chionged it out for you. but then u blamed it on me, saying that we sent the thing to you so dam freaking late until your ict coach is gone and u cldnt consult him, and so u dunno how to edit the codings of the game. you know my heart totally plunged when u said that. fine, it's all my fault okay. ALL MY FAULT. and srsly, my part wasnt easy please. i stoned in front of the comp from afternoon until the time i sent u the thing. researching and researching. it's seriously not as easy as what u think. you dunno what other questions u can add to the thing, u could have lyk asked us earlier. cos for godsake, dun tell me u think wad u did was okay, if u ever did refer to the rubrics. we dun need 2 games, we just need 1 good one. colorful, comprehensive..etc. you showed it to me/us this week and then u tell me u din know wad questions to add. u know i totally went speechless because it's lyk, coming out with questions isnt exactly that hard you know, if you acutally bothered to go read through the whole report and understand it (maybe u did.) the question dun have to be so freaking cool and awesome, just need to show the content of our report and that's it. and then u tell me u dun know how. the email i sent it to you, that kind of questions, u tell me u dunno? 5 mins and tt's all you need. but u dun seem to bother(?) and then when you told me to give you some questions this week, and when i went speechless, you deemed it that i wasnt willing to help. but hello darling, im freaking stressed out this week already with all my PGA stuff. ive so many things on hand to do, and then u come and tell me this kind of things at this time. you know it's so dam freaking inconsiderate? you complain that there isnt a group effort. then can u ask urself, wad have u done to the report? i could have give you a LIST of questions if u told me earlier, but u didnt, and u blame it on me. and im absolutely sure u have darn lotsa things to do. what u have, i have. what u have done, i hvnt done. what u have for cca, i have double of urs. u have problems, so do i. u keep it to urself, so do i. u feel troubled/tired/stress..etc, so do i. u have him to cheer you up, but me, i can only whine which doesnt help at all, and to cry all alone at home. u spent ur time having fun outside, eating all the delicacies, while im chionging all my stuff at home and u say u spent all the necessary time u have to do it. did u even bother to go search for instructions on how to do one? maybe u did, but i dun see it at all. and if u really cant cope with flash, jsut use powerpoint to create one. u could have told us if there's any difficulties u faced in dng the game, but u didnt bother to. and u blame it all on me. you dont prioritise your things, dng things u shldnt be dng during cca just so that u can go home and enjoy ur day with him, which results in u not knowing how to meddle with the codings. and then u blame it on me. u got no time, u blame on me. you dunno what questions to add, and told us at the vv last moment, and then u said i din bother to help because i did my part already and that work is allocated to you, u blamed it on me.the worst thing is that u actually think that im that sort of person- those who think that they are all high and mighty. friends for so long, and that's what u think of me. it's either u have changed, or i dun know a single shit of u in teh first place.
you ask me to spare a thought for you, but who's gonna spare a thought for me.
you look vv mature, but your thoughts and actions are far from that. if that's really what you think and feel, i have nothing to say.
u said u wld be there, but u werent.i swear i will never cry for anyone, not even myself, ever again.