Monday, March 2, 2009
♥ I NEED SOME HELP TO MOVE ON.
just finished all the hwk due tmr. sucks. totally forgot about their existence
(how i wish) but at least im done. the weekend was totally crazy.
pga training on sat. turf many many many, firelight many many many, and my knee got cut by the stones and sand while kneeling on the soil. got suffocated by the smoke. and stink-ed with the smoke. but wells, i love turfing and firelighting nevertheless;D ladder and e-shelter were stress!! ladder-2 poles in 1 min; e-shelter done in 5 mins. ended up tying ladder for ard 8+mins:( and e-shelter in 4mins;D haiiiz.
went back to shower and i bathe twice yet i still feel myself engulf in that firelighting smoke smeelll:((( went to watch my bro bball ntls selection after that. dam wierd lah. the whole bball assoc. were guys and a few mothers here and there. i was the only teenage girl amongst the guys lah. wth. felt super super shy lahhhh! there are all lyk tall as compared to me, some q macho, some q hot, and they were all super pro in bball. my heart was lyk beating dam fast 0.0 then my eyes dunno look where ._. but wells, the good news is.....tadahhdahdahhh! my bro got in (and his fren, laisheng too;D)! WAHAHAHAH! and he was shuang-ing all the way to dinner and to home. TSKTSK. but yeah, he fulfilled his dream! congratzz u
lousy poke! hehehe!
*180 degrees mood swing*
woke up today and my whole body sucks. aching from head to toe lahh! my arms, my back, my thigh were so painnn. but still, went for dance. stretching, crunches, push-ups- all for a baby freeze. TIREDDD:/ but still i cant do one:((( hope i can do it by the concert...if i even get selected *cross fingersss* prac the fiesta dance abit after, and i forgot the moves. omgg, sorry mandaaa!:/ journey home was horrid. it was raining so heavily and then i din umbrella, cldnt walk to the mrt. so i had to take bus from the building there. and the prob is i dunno wad bus to take. so i randomly took one that looks kinnda more familiar. stare out of the window home, raining heavily still and i suddenly felt q emo and started tearing 0.0 (im lousy i know). stopped at somewhere near my pri school and took another bus to change to mrt. kena splashed by a stupid car speeding in the rain. dam piss. if i hadnt move away faster, i will be wet thoroughly. stupidd car :/ got home and i almost got knocked down by a motorcycle. i could hear the drive horning at me lah, just too stone to move away. but lucky i somehow i reacted in the last minute, if not i think i will be lying dead now.
maybe beind dead is smth good huh?
then i wun be reminded of the hwk. and my LA that needs barrels of oil to buck up cos ms teo told me i need to put in more effort for LA, but then i really dunno how to improve. reading seems hard. no time, no determination, no interest. i know its bad. and the thing that bugs my heart for super long already (i know i need to move on, but i dunno how to..) and all the 123456789 things.
i wonder if anyone will think of me when im dead
i wonder if anyone will feel sad when im dead
i wonder if anyone will cry barrels for me when im dead
i wonder if it's suffocating to lie under a cloth covering my nose
i wonder if it's pain to be cremated under the 10000000000x degree celcius
bahhh.
okok. i need to be positive.
i have to be!
(tell me how?)
ANS: GO SLEEP.
REPLY: okay. bye.